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Now He Is With Us

We learned of the AIDS Memorial Wall last year when we joined the AIDS Walk.

Not too long after, Jahan forwarded an email to me. The email was from the organizer who takes care of adding names to the memorial wall. He had Kuya Bot’s name added. It was his birthday gift to me. Always generous and kind. He’s always thinking of ways to make me happy. I am so blessed.

Last night at the Toronto AIDS Candlelight Vigil, while the rain was pouring down on us, they mentioned the names added to the AIDS Memorial Wall recently. They mentioned Kuya Bot’s ┬áname (ARVIN LUIS BELLEZA) first. I wasnt ready. But I had my lifeline with me: Jahan, Helene and Alexander. I draw strength from them.

When the vigil was over, we walked to where the memorial wall is. It was surreal to see my brother’s name among those who perished from the disease.

When we were about to leave, my Alexander hugged me so tight and said “now he is with us in Toronto”.


At Toronto AIDS Candlelight Vigil 2017 with my family. The best support system. I couldn’t have done it without them.

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